Anywho, it was my first day of my senior year of high school today, and it was exhausting. I'm optimistic for the year, but I can't help but feel that my mental health will be questionable by the end of the year. But! Seeing my friends again was great, and all of my teachers and classes range from fairly nice to AWESOME. I imagine that I'll have fun and maybe even learn some stuff.
I can't shake the feeling that I'm in the home stretch. I keep having conflicting feelings of, "Oh, a year, it'll go by before I even know it!" and "A full year?! HOW DO THEY EXPECT ME TO SURVIVE?!" I'm not sure whether it's a healthy mentality living in perpetual wait of a time in the future; it reminds me of something I was told by an acquaintance years ago.
I was, of course, lamenting having to go back to school after summer break ended, and he said something along the lines of, "When I'm off on summer break, that's one kind of happiness, there's more freedom to do things. When I'm in school with my friends and learning things, that's another kind of happiness, I'm being social and productive." It made me wonder what kind of life I'm living if I spend all my time looking forward to something instead of enjoying what I have now.
That was a long rant to get across something along the lines of, I'm gonna do my best to make this a good year. Let's hope I don't crash and burn.
Maybe I'll do a post soon about what I hope to do for college.
